"All for fun, and fun for all!"

Saint John's Day - the 24th of June 2007 fell on Sunday, the best day to spend time for family and friends and of course, for relaxing. All the people were out in the water to celebrate the day when John baptized Jesus Christ in the Jordan River. And since this date became official for the Christians, we go out not just because we only want to swim but also to feel being baptized again. All the beaches and pools were crowded with people having fun with family and friends. I was invited with some friends to go with them to a beach 45 minutes away from home. Thanks to them, i really needed that adventure to have some color in my pale life lately.

When i got there, i was amazed by the beautiful view of the beach. The sky boasted it's glowing blue color that was accented with scattered soft cotton like clouds. The water was crystal clear and was sparkling like diamonds in the middle of the earth. Powdered my feet, the sand was absolutely in its finest form. I felt the softness of the sand with my bare feet and when i laid my back on it for a sun tan moment.

The tress flaunted their green leaves as they followed the direction of the wind gracefully. Then the people, with their smiles and laughter, their voices around talking and singing, their fun time playing under the heat of the sun, and the their bodies soaked in the calm water of the sea - completed the perfect picture of life.

After the pork and fish were grilled, we then hopped all together in the small native cottage that was made of bamboo and cogon grass then we started the feast. The foods were yummy so everyone were definitely filled. With the music that was in tune with our beach happening, we started drinking. My friends with beers and me with tanduay. When the effect of the alcohol heat us up, we found our feet pounding the beat of r & b music and everybody went up to dance. Our cottage was the merriest of all. Well, of course...when gays gather together, expect the unexpected!!!

The adventure would have never been complete without the swimming part. The sea water was such a teaser that it was like was calling us to dive in and spend the fun with it under the heat of the sun. So some of us decided to take the plunge while the sun is still up and enjoyed the swim...

Sun was down and we were not finished yet. As time went longer, we were getting into the mood for more and more fun! Then we decided to have a pageant that showcased the transvestites beauties, talents, and brains. Though I am not one of the candidates, I was the one who organized and hosted the event. And in accordance to nature, the 4 winners were crowned Miss Fire - Aldrina, Miss Water - Rannette, Miss Air - Jonas, and Miss Earth - Jaya. It was dogs bollocks and hilarious!!

Few minutes later, the rain envied our enjoyment and pour her welcome all over the place. Unfortunately, we did not find it overwhelming. Eventhough we left the place empty, we happily brought with us the memories we had on that time and place, and gladly kept them in our hearts. We went home smiling and thanking everyone for the amazing adventure. Now, i am looking forward for what is next ahead! I want to share with you a beautiful thought: "Fun is where it's at. That's why you have to be there."

Today...

Yesterday...when the wind was still blowing in the right directions, we can hear our laughter echoed in every ends of the world. Love birds envied us in our entwined. The hum of the leaves serenaded our unity. Everything was so perfect that i even refused to sleep just to watch you in every second of time. The happiness you gave me was the most meaningful and the most precious thing i value and treasure even up to now. That feeling keeps haunting me day and night within a year of struggle and fighting.

Catastrophes of love tested our strong foundation of belongingness. But after many years of holding on, i saw how the solid stone turned slowly into pieces of sand by the consistent hit of deep storms. Then the wind blew us apart...you in the smell of other's breath and me in the company of the wind...wandering...still...wandering...

As quick as lightning, i then saw you smiled with the new promise of love. While you were starting to gather up the broken pieces to build another world, i was left together with the pain of broken dreams. The tears became my friends because they were the only one who were there that listened and witnessed my cries. My heart cannot almost make a beat by the extreme feeling of sadness, loneliness, sorrow and heartaches. If my days were dry and abandoned, my nights were also as cold as the desert of blue lights that even the presence of the scorpions did not affect my sorrows. While the stars were boasting their glittering beauty, i was hidden in the deepest corner of the black hole...alone...wandering...still ...wandering...

Then after a year of crumpled heart, bulging eyes, empty thoughts, tired emotions, false hoping, forever waiting, and deep thinking...the clock then laid her two hands to wake me up from that long bleak nightmare. And now, as i see the sky beginning to lighten up the whole place, i know it is already over. I then believe that there is always light at the end of the tunnel...that every inhale you make follows the exhale...that every entrance you go, there is always an exit...that every death, there is also birth...that every night, a new day is expected to come...that every sleep, there is awakening...and that every yesterday...there is TODAY...

Mary Jane

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